Kind of itching and I can’t scratch
Alex @ July 8, 2007 | | Computers, Personal |
When you’re a gamer, I guess, you’re always a gamer. If you’ve ever abused a substance in your life, then you know how withdrawals go. And I just realized that I might just be a gaming addict. I’ve decided to ban gaming on my notebook since I got a scare the last time I tried to run a graphics-heavy application on Little Sidekick and got “alarming” temperature readings (Nag-iinit ang aking Little Sidekick kapag nilalaro). Sure, I have the default Windows games but I’m no solitaire or freecell addict.
I’m so restless that I can’t concentrate on doing productive things like checking my students’ papers or preparing lesson plans. I keep booting up my ol’ desktop PC and punch in some rounds killing Nazis since it still had Call of Duty 2 there. But I’m kind craving for some other games. And those games run beautifully on Little Sidekick. Excuse me while, I wipe some drool of my chin. This is scary. I think I’m getting rabid. A test of iron will though, as I haven’t even bothered popping out Little Sidekick’s DVD drive.
Oh yes, speaking of gaming, my old contacts from the MMORPG companies have recently tapped me to take a look into Lineage II and they asked me if I wanted to participate in their closed test beta. Now this is probably the first time (they got me in the list, but it hasn’t started yet) I’ll be trying out an MMORPG since I restrained myself from attempting three years back with Ragnarok (which was a good thing since it never got me distracted from my thesis as opposed to many sorry kids who didn’t even get past 2nd year college, poor idiots).
I use gaming as a past time and as a vicarious escape from reality. Shooting a few Nazis to dust or blowing things up takes a great deal of aggression off of me. Oh, and I can’t wait for Fallout 3. I love playing the baddest motherf*cker in the wasteland in that series with my character. I digress. Anyway, it seems that things are just too real that it’s frustrating that I can’t even get a break from it all.
Besides, I should be doing a whole lot of other things than worry about gaming. Like cleaning my room, my bathroom, and preparing for my classes. Not to mention I need a haircut, badly and I need to go to my bank’s ATM and get me some dough for my expenses this month. It’s a wonder how I can still muster some logic and energy to blog (out of necessity, I guess, espeically for LifeSpy). But for some reason, I feel so lethargic. Probably from the colds medicine I’ve been shooting like a crackwhore since yesterday.
I just feel empty inside. Hah! Another bout of my clinical depression. I would’ve visited a shrink but I don’t believe handing my money over to someone who’d tell, in so many words to “lighten up.” Unless, of course, the shrink means that I should get lit and gives me marijuana for medicinal purposes or a prescribes me with Prozac administered intravenously. Hey, whatever happened to Mogadon (netrazepam)? I know Pepe Smith swears against talampunay (Datura).
Even my desk is a mess with all the yellow pad paper with insipid freshman ideas scattered all over. Now, let me just get rid of some clutter and probably help declutter my mind. Oooh. What do I have here? Pepper spray. Yum.
That’s my pepper spray!
This may be the reason why my mother didn’t buy us computer games as kids
wait till starcraft 2 arrives hehe and try online turn-based games too, they won’t make you stay 1 flat long hours to play since you have to wait for your turns to build up.