The hypochondriac is back
Alex @ March 15, 2008 | | Education, Health, Personal |
I hate it when I don’t get the time to write on my precious blog for more than a week! Anyway, as it has always been when I don’t get to write something on my blog, things have been f*cked up. I’m perpetually busy with work and since it’s the end of the semester again, time to turn in final requirements for my graduate classes. And since I was in the mood last week, I finished it last weekend two weeks before the deadline. That’s what obsessive-compulsion does to you.
Too bad, I’m assigned to be part of the defense panel for a few undergraduate students so I have to pore over a couple of hundred pages of preposterous twaddle-cock (hehehe) and see what can be “improved” on them before we start recommending those people for graduation.
Well, aside from those…
I’ve been spending quite some time (and money) visiting the doctor(s) for a few days the past week. I felt a small bump on my inner thigh and being the hypochondriac that I am, I am worried out of my mind like hell. I’ve seen two doctors already, one says it’s a cyst. And another says might be an enlarged lymph node since I had a bout with fever two weeks ago.
Anyway, “cyst” is enough for me to get paranoid. Any rogue cell formation can mean just one thing or another. And in this country, the “other” means a death sentence, especially if you’re not a millionaire. And I’m not.
The first doctor who said it was a cyst at least assured me that given the location, it is 99% benign and that I got no reason to lose sleep over it. I like the odds but I’d love to be dead sure. He’s recommending surgery to remove it “if it bothers me.” He just told me to monitor it if it starts to hurt or if it grows any larger.
I’m out to get myself a third opinion but I decided to follow the enlarged lymph node call since my blood work indicates that I do still have an infection. I’m halfway through my regiment of antibiotics right now but still, I haven’t really felt the lump go away. So I’m still scared. Same doctor told me if in any case, it’s not a lymph node, that it’s still a very small lump anyway (less than half a cm) so surgery might just cause unnecessary complications especially with the odds that it’s benign (like nerve damage) so she’d also advise me to take the “observe” route. She’s more concerned with my infection and slight anemia.
Man, I always hate it when I’m not sure. Probably why I only gamble with favorable odds.
I probably need to see a shrink one of these days. I feel that my psychological issues (hypochondria and obsessive-compulsion) are starting to get the better of me.
i think i got one on my left chest, left part. does not hurt but it bothers me sometimes.